(sorry i haven't been on, my mom's place has no internet)
any who, my boyfriend of almost 2 yrs broke up w/ me about 1-2 weeks ago and it sucks!!
i've been in a rut, i can't read my romance fanfics because i've been so down. i thought he was the one, but i guess i screwed up again.
last night i went to see Role Models (which is an AWESOME movie) with my friend josh and when i dropped him off at his house he tried asking me out. i feel bad turning him down, but i don't see him as anything more then a friend. so later that night (after i dropped him off) i headed down to the ped mall and played some pool and had 3 bottles of Smirnoff ice.
lots of my friend/family say there's better guys out there, but idk. see i'm not in college since i graduated and i don't really have much of a chance to meet any guys unless they're at bars and they're usually drunk so they don't really mean much to any of the things they say. so it just feels soo impossible to find some one w/out going to some dating service online where they charge to find out your results.

so right now, life sucks for me. i know that guys aren't everything, but you gotta keep in mind, i haven't been single for about 4 years.